Parting With My Baby

When you do something the first time and you find it difficult you assume the next time will be easier ..That might be true, but when it comes to your children that rule doesn’t apply.

It was time for my second daughter to leave to university and we had decided that I was not going to accompany her since her sister was studying in the same state, but five days before she left she asked me if I would take her (between me and you I was pleased) knowing myself that I liked to be on top of things I agreed. I felt she was worried because it was her first time in the USA and needed me to be with her but I had one thing on my mind HOW I was going to part with her at the airport ( knowing myself I would make a drama scene). The whole time I was there that’s all I thought about. I was there to help her be strong, but I was the one who needed the help . The whole time I was there she didn’t leave me, I tried to get her to go and spend time with her friends but wasn’t successful. She kept telling me she wanted to spend the time with me which made it harder for me and her.

The day I was supposed to leave came and my worries grew. I woke up that morning to pray the fajer prayer and I usually pray so quick and hurry back to bed, but that morning was different, it was the day I was going to leave a part of me in a different country and she wasn’t going to be under my supervision and I wouldn’t know when and where she was every minute of the day. I wouldn’t know if she ate and when she slept. That scared the hell out of me!! As I sat on my prayer mat thinking… I remembered the Prophet Moses story and how hard it must have been for his mother when she was asked to throw her baby son in the river… and right at that moment I started talking to Allah in a way like never before. I asked Him to give me strength just like He gave her, and to return her just like He returned him. For I was leaving her with Him in His hands. The time came when I had to say goodbye and once again I thought of the Surah and how Moses's mother parted with her son in this difficult situation, she did it in a quick manner and I decided to say goodbye very quick and so I did. As I sat on the plane I felt such relief, peace, and calmness that I had never felt before. The closest thing I could describe it to, was when I leave my kids with my mother or sister I don’t have to worry about them not being in safe hands . و للة المثل الأعلي

ان اقذفيه في التابوت فاقذفيه في اليم فليلقيه اليم بالساحل ياخذه عدو لي و عدوله والقيت عليك محبة مني ولتصنع على عيني. (39) سورة طه

فرجعنك الى امك كي تقر عينها و لا تحزن (40) ) سورة طة